my CNY & 16→birth^_^

i took these at my datuk's house^^wo
ohoo!

yen and me^^

╁不是因为我笨，而是因为我不想争╁

第四年了。。

还是很后悔。。

你，是我唯一の遗憾。。。

好好照顾自己。。

。。 。。 。。

回想N年前。。

我们。。

无所不谈。。

不知情の人都以为我们。。

是情侣。。

其实我们是很好の朋友。。

不知道为什么。。

有一天。。

莫名其妙地。。

我到现在还想不透。。

我们。。就这样。。

成为历史里最棒の神话。。

后知后觉。。

你没有错。。

我没有错。。

dar没有错。。

错の是。。

意想不到の，

我们最信赖の人。。

都过去那么久了。。

你，

是我一辈子弥补不会の伤心。。

我，

是你记忆选择相信流言の知己。。

中二了。。

你不在了。。

仰天长啸又何必？

唉，

很轻很轻の，

没人听见の一个感叹。。

不需要，也没有这个必要

让其他人听见。。

希望，

你会过得很好。。

中三了。。

忙了。。

慌了。。

我，

没时间去多想一切一切の

不开心。。

某一个夜里。。

我养の那只梦魇告诉我，

一个不能说の秘密。。

我知道，

你曾经对我很失望。。

对不起。。

中四了。。

和dar同班了。。

偶然。。

聊起中一那些

该死の回忆。。

原来。。

一直以来。。

dar都不知道。。

是谁搞の鬼。。

今天。。

她 看清了，

一个人。。

一个，

无论怎样伤害dar,dar都会继续帮她找借口原谅她の人。。

一个，

dar以为她是真心の朋友。。

我，

一点也不惊讶。。

我告诉dar

：有份参与这件事の人，都不是笨の。。

对丫。。

真の。。

斗久了。。

会累の。。

我不想跟你们斗下去。。

不是因为我不够你们斗，

而是因为我不想过着尔虞我诈の生活。。

就跟我不选择进第一班同样の道理。。

不是我头脑不够你们精，

而是我想选择过一些简单开心の生活。。

我从来没有后悔为自己作了一个这样の选择。。

至少，

我是每天笑着放学の。。

→Remember he has gone forever←

Do you even think about me?
Do you even cry yourself to sleep?
In the middle of the night when you awake..
Are you calling out my name?
It's only me missing you..
I love you..
Forget him..
Forget his name, Forget his face
Forget his kiss..
His warm embrace..
Forget the love you first knew,
Forget him when they played your song,
Remember when you cryed all night long..
Forget how close you two were,
Remember he has chosen her..
Forget you memorized his walk,
Forget the way he used to talk,
Forget the things he used to say,
Remember he has gone away..
Forget his laugh, Forget his grin,
Forget the dimples in his chin,
Forget the way he held you tight,

Remember he's with her tonight..

Forget the time that went so fast,
Forget the love that moved it's past,
Forget he said he'd leave you never,
Remember he has gone forever...

angry?→no point to angry with you..zz

early in the morning..
the moment i reach the school..
i was looking for shan...
quite worried about her..
she seems tired..
seems despair..
i can see these from her eyes..
strolled around the school with xin hui.. kit.. pei en too..
we meet zhi xin.
don't know why..
we came to basketball court..
F is talking with A now..
xin hui and zhi xin..
cannot tahan and SCOLDED F badly..
A see me.. hug me thn..
she felt very sorry to me..
:nicole, i know what happen.. sorry..
i know fei break up with you because of me..
sorry i hurt you..
but i had no point to hate her..
i told her: is ok for me.. i didn't blame you..
she hugged me so tight..
..
during assembly..
i was fucking angry!
cause..
F sit BESIDE me..
WT..
i didn't scold him..
i was just..
TALKED LOUDLY..
sengaja d..lolz!
HE TALKED LOUDLY TOO!!
STILL LAUGHING THERE!
:yo!还敢坐这里!
:还笑到酱大声!
:顶不顺了!劲!!!
yaya... i said so many things..
all my friends know me..
I HATE THAT!
i acknowledge that..
what did i SAID!
is totally pointed at him!
obviously too..
i've been try to cool down myseif..
finally..
i stop "scolding" him..
actually... he did nothing wrong..
but..
i still can't forgive him..
i played and laughed in class..
lazy to bother him more..
so.. i enjoyed my happy life..and WELL
after i arrive home..
called my dear..
i told him the whole things..
he asked me: don't wade in yourself to these things more.. pls..
i know he worried sbout me..
i promise him too..
i know i ought to listen him so..
sorry dear..
i, love you..

forget the sad→enjoy my happy&simple life

haha.. i cooked without kakak's helped^^ tasty much i think~

lazy→forgive me,lack sleeping

got school day..
i didn't go to school..
not lazy!
my dear know why..
thx dear..
i love u for my life..
i receive H's msg..
call her then..
she told me,
last night they get together again..
but he said he need times to think this morning..
WT..
ok..
i hold my breath..
H, don't be stupid k?
he ain't love you more?
why you keep pretending yourself?
is he a best guy?
nope!
james even better than him!
..sorry.. i hurt you..
i just want you face to it..
but u dissapoint me..
so sad..
never mind..
you'll know one day..
ah bee sms me..
:she cried again..
:what happen?
:F wants break up with her..
:WTF.. he better go to hell!
:haiz..
:..now we just can company her..
yaya..
that's only what we can do

SAD→they will learn their lesson

05/02
today.. my 6th sense told me,
bad things will happen..
because..
yesterday..
i went 4 my add maths tuition class..
i found some Fxxx msgs(between a fxxx guy and 劲)..
before i write this, there's a story wanted to tell..
a guy, called F loves a girl, B..
he loves that girl since he form 1..
(now, both of them are form 4)
one day, B celebrated her birth in school
F bought a cake to for her..
B was touched..
(actually, B wanted accept him..
BUT..
F aly with a girl,H..
fine.. B didn't tell anyone the truth..
she let him go)
B and H love each other so DEEPLY..
and B PROMISED H, will loves her FOREVER
and WON'T BETRAY her!
.. now i expose the lie!
:劲, i regret aly..
:?? regret what?
:i miss B..
:what? so u wanna break up with H?
:i think..
:but H falls for you in a big way..
:.. i know..
:so.. wat's ur finally decison?
:chased B back when grow bigger..
....
after i finish reading those msgs..
deep breathing, cool down 1st..
i asked劲.. what should we do now??
劲sighing, do nothing..
he look at me with a worried frown..
i closed my eyes and try to ignore this.
i told my dear after tuition, i know he can help me..
when i was talking with him,
actually my tears coming out, but i didn't tell him..
he understand me
because.. this thing occured to me that
my ex treat me like that before..
and nobody help me that time.. despair much..
unfortunately,
my good friend, H same with me..
i try to help her..
but 劲and leong advise me that
no point to wade in..
finally,
i listened to them..
after school,
i saw H.. she seems sad
i know what happen..
the moment she enter my room,
she cried
:F ignore me without any reason..
i keep quiet, that's pity girl still don't know the truth behind
H:我不是不相信他爱我，而是我感觉不到他的爱！
silence..
we went for tuition..
H read the msg.
劲and me din told her..she found by herself..
ok..she told me
:i cannot bear this more..i want break up with him
i totally agree with her..
when H said to F..
i didn't find any slightest of sadness on his face!
still LAUGHING!!
H came my house..
she cried out loudly..
i hug her so tight..
company she..
i cried too when i listen to我爱他..
after that.. we stop..
she sms with other friends..
we laying on the bed,
i keep quiet..
that's the best way i did,
i think so..
thn, after she back home..
i told my dear..
i was tired..is non of my buisness,why i still wade in??
stupid..
softhearted..
but never mind..
i will try my best to help my friends in future..
i heart you all..